So after I came home from my session last night I cried for about 2 and a half hours. Every time I'd think I was done more tears would come. I still don't really understand what's going on with me but I'm finally feeling a little bit better. I don't think I've ever suffered any kind of trauma or anything like that so why do I have all these issues? My parents are very loving and supportive but I have often felt there was some sort of "misattunement". I feel as though my feelings are wrong like my mum often says "don't be ridiculous" when I'm freaking out about something and I don't always get the sort of comfort that I need. I have often felt that I was not good enough for my parents. I don't know how to explain it. It sounds so trivial and it doesn't seem like a good enough explanation for this "void".
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