Smiles of encouragement and lots of hugs are sent your way. Not everyone believes in God, or wants to have a close relationship with him. It makes my heart glad that you do. For me it is the glue that holds me together when all looks lost and I get very depressed. If I didn't believe in God, in these moments when all is dark and bleak I would have lost my way. I have said a prayer for you and will contine to keep you in my thoughts and prayers hoping you start feeling better. This is really a great site for people who are lost and in need of comfort. This site gives me an anchor that helps keep me from drifting away. Please keep coming and posting. I look forward to talking with you some day.