Two weeks out of a psychotic break and my pdoc has told me that he may not be able to treat me anymore as when I become severely suicidal he finds it difficult to cope with my lack of, or at times, odd spiritual beliefs. He is a fundamentalist Christian and sees the world very different to me. He can't seem to put his religion aside and treat me as a simple psychiatrist. He said he sees a difference in me since my break so will continue to treat me and see how things are in a few months. If he is still not comfortable he will transfer me to another psychiatrist from the same hospital.

This has really thrown me, made me angry and wonder if I should just transfer now. He has been my doctor for three years and I was attached to him. In the past I have been spiritually abused by Christian 'counsellors' who treated me terribly. He knows this and now is being another Christian who can't handle my illlness. This hurts and triggers me deeply. I don't understand as I hardly talk about spirituality unless he brings it up and then I state clearly why I'm not a Christian from intellectual points. I am unsure of spirituality now in any way, especially since my psychotic break as it all seems like brain chemistry to me.

I am not wanting to judge Christians here or any other spirituality. I accept people of all faiths and have friends from Christians to witches. I am just heartbroken about my pdoc. He has done a lot for me and now I feel abandoned for no fault of my own. Pretty harsh too so soon after being so unwell.

What should I do? Wait a few months or request a transfer next time I see him in two weeks? This is really distressing me.