PTSD sucks. Grief sucks. Destabilized mental illness sucks. Being on medication sucks. Being IP sucks. Needing therapy sucks. I'll be honest and say all that up front.

Please stay on your meds so you can get healthy enough to deal with your PTSD. It is not going to go away just because you are rapid cycling. You may not feel it as much, but it will still be there.

You are hurting, and when you are hurting it is normal to want anything that will make it hurt less. We are here to support you.