I didn't realize I was abused until a year into therapy. I suppose it just kind of seemed normal until the day I realized it wasn't. Then one by one, memories started coming back.

I can't comment on the sexual abuse, but I can tell you that the feeling of emptiness is awful. And sorry, no one who hasn't lived with that emptiness can understand. Neruofeedback is helpful. I hear so is EMDR, but my last T regrettably screwed that up...I write a lot - often to share with my T and sometimes poems to try and express the sense of what this is like.

cPTSD - We few, we proud, we survivors.