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Originally Posted by granite1
morning guys .again i am struck with the morning blues .i have crafting to do and an apt with my cardiologist. i just want to be pain free. and im having such a hard time with christmas. i ended out sending the mother a gift card for christmas and im scared to tell my T .i know she will be mad at me . she wants no contact with her at all . not sending her a gift is just not who i am . i couldnt handle the guilt . i have been feeling horribly guilty about all of this . i know she is horrible and will hurt me over and over again but isnt that what im doing to her right now . i hate christmas this year so bad
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Granite: Your mother would ACT hurt if you didn't send her a present. I am pretty sure she is incapable of feeling anything but her narcisstic rage and self-entitlement. What would happen is she would just try and guilt you for her own PLEASURE, because she wants all control of you. But-you ARE doing your best, and when you think your T is mad at you for this kind of stuff, I think what you are hearing is her anger AT your mother, because she knows what a tangled web she weaved around you.