I was first depressed/suicidal when I was 9. My parents literally dragged me to therapy, but it really helped. Very anxious for as long as I can remember (perfectionist tendencies didn't help that). Then I felt pretty good until I was 15. Things just built up, another depressive episode and I got put on zoloft when I was 17, which triggered my first mania. Then I started cycling more often. Still trying to figure out what "stable" means.