I'm mostly finished with Christmas shopping. I just need to pick up two gift cards for my cousins. They are unappreciative brats (young adults, 19 and 21) so I feel no desire to even get those. In fact I might not. I could buy the older one some cologne. I don't know what I'd get the younger one though. I guess I could have picked up some fishing tackle at Walmart but I didn't think about it. I really don't feel like going back there so close to Christmas. Oh well.

I'm done for everyone else though. I had to dip into my tuition money to pay for everything though. I'm hoping to get some money for Christmas so I can replenish the fund and be able to pay my tuition in full.

I wish my husband were alive. I hate wrapping gifts so he used to do it for me. He also spent a good half hour arranging everything under the tree perfectly. I feel my presentation is more haphazard. But I don't think my son will care. He instructed me we have to leave cookies and milk for santa AND we have to leave out a carrot for the reindeer. I never left carrots out as a kid but whatever. I just hope some woodland creature takes it overnight so I don't have to go out in the morning and retrieve it.

I'm thinking of taking him out on Christmas Eve to drive around town and look at lights. That could be our new tradition. We don't do anything for Christmas Eve as my mom's church doesn't hold a service. Usually I make a crab ball and eat some good cheese and crackers but that's no fun for a little kid. He wants to watch frosty the snowman too. I hate that movie but if he wants to watch it then we will watch it.

My mom and brother both hate Christmas so they kind of take the fun out of it for me. But they at least put on a brave face.