Thanks everyone! In 2012 I ceased to be a Christian due to intellectual reasons then 6 months later started seeing him. At first he tried to reconvert me a few times and I resisted so he let it go. Since then I have been exploring different spiritual beliefs that don't involve an intervenist God like pantheism or metaphysical stuff. I see everything as connected and amazing even divine. Since my break I am questioning everything as I don't know what it real anymore. I hardly talk about my beliefs with him so I don't understand why he has such issue with them. He says I have no grounding so am vulnerable when suicidal. But when suicidal I don't want to die because of anything spiritual. I have other reasons mostly cause my brain is not working right.

To tell me this when I'm so fragile is unfair and unethical. Now I feel unstable and upset along with being utterly exhausted. But I have had a good relationship with him outside religion and though he would be my doctor for years. Right now I don't feel up to changing doctors so I will give it a month and take it from there. My gut instinct is to fire him as he has a problem with me he can't get over. This is affecting my treatment and peace of mind. Still, I like the meds I'm on and don't want them messed with. I have Lithium for BP, Ritalin for ADD and Clonazepam for anxiety plus Abilify should I get agitated or hypo/manic, it may even help with depression.

Ahh, I'm so confused and angry. I see some say ditch him, report him and others stay with him. I doubt I will report him as I am too passive and afraid it may come back on me seen as I would be seeing a pdoc from the same practice. Please don't think I'm against religious people. I am not. Just those that mix it in areas it doesn't belong, like psychiatry. He somehow can't stand that I'm no longer a Christian and that I have different ways of seeing the world. I am open spiritually and always have been spiritual but my psychotic break has just made me rethink things, even atheism. I need reality to be a firm place I can ground myself in so will question everything now.