I have been trying to get help for my dissociative disorder since a divorce in 1991. I have not even found a mental health professional who will talk about it much less know how to treat it. I went to the VA Clinic in Lake City, Florida for ten years. I told the mental health professionals for ten years that I had a dissociative disorder. They would not talk to me about it much less plan a treatment regiment. They would not refer me to any one either.

I am getting the same treatment at this VA Clinic in Georgia. I know many of you have been given DID diagnoses. Why can't I find a mental health professional who will talk about this mental illness? I repetitively told the staff in Lake City that the mental illness is in their own Diagnostic and Statistical Manuel on Mental Illness! They still would not talk to me about it???

I guess that they thought that treatment was just waiting to see me switch personalities. Any idiot can do that. What a competent mental health professional would have done was to start discussing the abuses that I went though as a toddler. None of them have done that. Then a competent professional would have helped me determine all the triggers. Then helping me make my loved ones understand the mental illness so that when my alters come out they can recognize or begin to recognize the differences.

My normal personality does not play any head games. I believe I have alters that do. It makes my life miserable. I am 61 now with absolutely no intimate family or friends.

I wrote a short bio on my childhood so that the therapists in Lake City would know how badly I was traumatized during my toddler years. I mistakenly thought they would get me some help after reading it. I recently sent the bio to the Sidran Institute and to The Dr. Colin Ross Institute. I was hoping that one of these Institutes would give me a dissociative diagnosis. I have not heard anything.

This is where my anger originates.