It's been a rough 2 months.

First month was hell, I fell into a deep depression and found myself self-harming and attempting suicide.

But I got on medication and have been doing very well for the past 3 weeks.

We tried to remain friends. For the first month I was very clingy and desperate from the depression. But now I'm over it and realize being friends isn't possible.

However my ex still continues to message me sometimes, asking for money and getting upset with I don't give him anything. He talks to other girls on dating sites and has gone out with a few of them, but still as I said, messages me trying to start small talk even when I told him to stop. He seems to want to keep communication there, but I don't really.. want to anymore. I dont see a friendship between us. With him threating me with the kids for money, arguing with me, accusing me of not taking care of the children properly and dating within days of dumping me.. well it hasn't exactly left me feeling like I even WANT a friendship with this person.

But i don't know what it means ._.' If he's talking to other girls why even bother with me, you know what i mean?