I'm sorry for all the heartache this therapist has caused you. Think about the therapist that YOU are .. what you aspire to be,, your desire to help others; you're empathetic.. I see it in your responses to others. Ask yourself " why do I allow myself to be treated this way?" You deserve to be treated with kindness, respect, and compassion. I hope that you'll start the new year by ridding yourself of this toxic woman and give yourself the space and time that you need to find a therapist that will be a MUCH better fit : )