A lot of what you have expressed...I have felt...I try to look at my emotions as just that....they are emotions...they just ARE...they are what you feel...our brains are wired to have feelings.....it isn't right or wrong...it is what you feel....you are recognizing them as feelings....you aren't going to go do harm to anyone.....so...isn't it okay to acknowledge what you feel?....you say that there are reasons for why you feel this way....so again....why would it be bad to feel them.....if someone pinches you every time you get near them....why would you want to get near them.....and even more....they aren't going to inspire feelings of....yippee...

I have a brain injury....with memory loss......I didn't have an emotional connection to my family.....and then when I was round them....Whoa....they did not feel good....they didn't act in a way that I wanted to hang with them either....so I didn't....and that pissed them off.....it is just a round and round circling.....I think that means you can get off the merry go round ride..........One of my quests was to know what LOVE felt like....I didn't understand it.........greatly because people were telling me they loved me....and they made me feel really bad.....so that isn't love.....you aren't required to feel Love.....you say you feel it for your daughters so you have an experience of it....and that is good....it is a measure to hold that love....there may be nothing wrong with you at all....it is your underlying awareness...recognizing love isn't there.....I can try and express that universal love to all beings....as we are human kind....and we all need....yet that doesn't mean I am going to invite everyone into my home and hang out with them either.....Some times it is comforting just to own our own feelings....and it is okay to do just that.....
This is only my opinion.....yet maybe you could mine through it...and find something that could give you a bit of a deep breath....