I just want to make sure I understand. Did you already start the job? It sounds like you are overwhelmed with this. Do you enjoy it? Have you talked to your husband about what he might want you to do? Though I'd say with this kind of thing, if you are stressed, maybe find something less stressful for yourself. Are you on disability at all? I ask because it's something that could help financially while you learn to cope with your mental health. Hugs.