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Old Dec 22, 2016, 07:27 AM
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Originally Posted by Michael W. Harris View Post
I now know that what broke my mind during my toddler years was the unbearable emotional pain that I felt from the constant abuse by my Brother. I loved him and needed him but he hated me.

So would emotional pain be a sense of agency for me?
no thats not sense of agency.

sense of agency is a new diagnostic criteria for having DID here in america.

in its simplest psychological definition it means

what each alters job, purpose, reason for being created are...
(example Rainy was my alter who's job purpose, reason for being created was to handle any situation that involved sadness or storms or crying, Thelma was my alter who's job purpose reason for being was to handle sexualized situations, Red was my alter who's job, purpose reason for being created was to handle anger charged situations.)

how much control each alter and the one they reside with in have when in control of the body... when Rainy was in control of my body she could hold things, wrap up in blankets, move the from place to place. when thelma was in control of the body she could move the body, perform intimate/ dating, when red was in control Red could yell, scream hollar, rip things up.

how much awareness/ co consciousness the alters and the one they reside with in have with each other.... when rainy was in control she could not hear the others, talk to the others or share memories, thelma had limited co consciousness to where if Rainy was faced with an intimate situation thelma would take control or if Rainy could not find the toy or blanket thelma knew and was able to take control find the blanket then set it somewhere where sheknew the next time rainy was in control she would find the blanket. Red had more co consciousess and awareness. I the one they resided with in did not have much co consciousness and very little awareness of the others inside me. I heard voices but had no idea they were alternate personalities.

you can read more about sense of agency in my link at the bottom of my post marked sense of agency.

Last edited by Turtleboy; Dec 22, 2016 at 02:39 PM.
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