I'd try reading "Icarus Redeemed: A Schizoaffective Story" by G. H. Francis and "Schizoaffective Disorder: Victory is Possible" by Lacy Wise. Icarus is the better book for my money, but Lacy presents her story from a religious point of view, which is rare in mental illness memoirs. Both these books deal with the symptoms, suicidal thoughts, etc. that come with this condition.