Today I made it through the grocery store without worrying about a shooting taking place, so that's an improvement. I'm still getting paranoia about my family poisoning my food and drinks. I've been sleeping 10 hours lately with vivid dreams. It's hard to wake up even after sleeping more than enough. I'm having periodic hallucinations and bouts of anger. I feel like I've been eating way too much lately. It's hard because my mom has so much candy and junk food here. I'm at a healthy weight and refuse to gain.

My sister and her husband are coming tomorrow to stay for 5 days. My sister is extremely negative and hostile so I know she's bound to upset me and everyone else. I feel like I have to walk on eggshells around her. This will not mix well with my anger.