It really makes me doubt I have something at all. I mean, I have felt for years that there was something different or wrong with me. But with all these close people telling me I should not make a big deal of it and just calm down, I start to think maybe I am just crazy (but not mental ill crazy, just exaggerating and everything I feel, all the ups and downs are my fault). I feel I am finally doing the right thing by looking for a diagnosis and therefore for stabilization but they make me feel very insecure about this.