Starting to calm down. Still very exhausted from my psychotic break so need to rest. Talked to my T and he recommended I focus on recovery for a few weeks and think about my options then. Think I will do this and I can't deal with it now. Seeing my pdoc on the 4th Jan but will probably keep it med and recovery related and leave talking to him properly till the next appointment. All other doctors are on holidays anyway. My gut says I'm going to have to change doctors and that will take time and energy. At least my mood is stable for now so treatment is working.