I'm either manic and making stupid decisions spending stupid amounts of money that I don't have or so depressed I don't even have the energy to move from bed or am lying on the floor sobbing.

With the depression comes the delusions, I'm so disgusting my boyfriend is definitely cheating on me or I'm being watched any time I leave my house.

I'm so sick of this and even with meds I am either one or the other all the time, there's never a break. What's worse is I never really know when I'm manic at the time. No therapist at the moment either.

Sorry I'm ranting~