That is really tough. I am so sorry you have to deal with such dramatic swings all the time. The meds you are on are mild, maybe an adjustment/change will help you out? You should not have to live this way and there must be a solution that will work for you to at least calm the episodes down and give you breaks in between. Therapy will help if you are able to get access to it. But I think a good psychiatrist and the right meds are the key. I wish you all the best. Post as much as you need and PM me if you want to chat.