Honestly, this is why I don't post a lot on the forum. I struggle in my life with feeling connected and there are people on here whose stories I can "connect" with, including yours to some degree, but I see some of the responses to posts like yours and people like you, who I think are braver than me, and it shuts me down.

There are certain posters who seem to have their own agenda. I get that many people have been hurt but it's almost like they see everything from that perspective. That's their right, and it's also understandable, but hard if you are just trying to process something and it makes you more upset/uncomfortable. It's great to see things from varying perspectives, absolutely, but the "therapist is always bad" viewpoint can be just as harmful as the "therapist is perfect" viewpoint, especially for people trying to process attachment and connection issues.

Anyway, sorry for going on so long. I'm glad you feel like some understanding came through emails today. It's hard to feel that disconnect with our T's for sure, and it's hard to accept the limitations in the therapy relationship sometimes. I totally get that!