sky, you are right to a degree. i always was the dumping ground for family. t said i had no choice, being born into a family of takers...i was the giver. i lived out that role until a few years ago and broke ties with several members of family. those that could accept me as i am now, did. and those that couldn't are still no part of my life.

what you described was the first 39 years of my life. i've been reborn though however, when crisis arrive, i have to respond...such as with the baby. now, with the father.

i went to see him today because i could and i felt that i wanted to. i don't know if i'll see him again. the baby is my first and foremost priority right now, because i "chose" to be involved. i can't control things like the father being extremely ill or the baby's parents not being able to care for him. i can, however, control what i choose or choose not to do in the situations that have surfaced. in each case, i made choices that i feel i can live with for the rest of my life.

the "dumping ground" has been eliminated and i'm planting seeds for a garden

thank you as always for your support,

be safe,

kimmydawn