I feel so, off... or something.... right now. I'm not quite sure how to describe it. Like part of me is off in another dimension or something. Went shopping earlier with h to pick up a couple of Christmas presents for each other. Maybe it was the crowds in the store. I don't know. Strange energy out there. I can't seem to shake it off to go to sleep. Like I don't want to take it to the dream time with me or something. And I want t. That doesn't help, either. I'm feeling so embarrassed by what I told her in my email last night still that I can't even imagine 'talking' to her in my head tonight which I sometimes do when I can't fall asleep. I'm too embarrassed to even pretend talking to her. I guess I'm in for a sleepless night, at least tomorrow is Friday, right? And hopefully we won't be too busy with Christmas being this weekend. I'm hoping the rush was today - because we were super busy. I'm going to go watch some mindless tv for awhile. May be back, maybe not.