My dad treats me horribly because of my illness. Every T that I've trusted enough to open up to about him had agreed that I have PTSD from my childhood of him raising me and the hell is still never ending when I'm about to be 30. Ive been diagnosed for 12 years. The pdoc pulled him aside and explained my Dx to him when I was Dx as a teen but he never brought it up to me again. He still won't ever be caught dead saying "my daughter is BP". He knows how I've gotten fired from jobs because I'm unstable. Or in his words, lazy. So after being traumatized from losing my last job that I loved, I put on my big girl panties and called him and explained that I'm too unwell to work any time soon. Even when I get better it only lasts a month at best. So fast forward to this just passed thanksgiving, after I had ignored his back handed comments all day, and he knows why I can't work and struggling financially, he brings up my money problems in front of EVERYONE there. No shame at all. I absolutely flipped. I couldn't take one more minute and yea I raised my voice and told him he's ruining everyone's holiday and he's being rude bringing up my issues in front of people I had just met that day. I was so appalled by how he was treating me. So needles to say, I'm terrified of him doing it again on Christmas. And this is how he is every single time we speak. I refuse to even answer his calls anymore because he ends up ruining my whole day. The only time I ever got a pat on the back from his is when I was making money. He's that kind of guy that basis his opinion on people by how much money they make. And I'm not saying that to be mean, that is really how he looks at everyone he knows. His problem is he's uneducated about how very real Mi is and it's a very sad and horrible thing to go through. Also he's in major friggin denial even when my pdoc explained it to him when i was a teen. I'm absolutely dreading Christmas dinner. I'm going to need a lot of wine to deal with his abuse. Thing is I don't know what hurts worse, him beating us kids growing up or how he's treated me since i was Dx.

Omg so sorry for making that a huge story. Really stressing about the holidays over here lol.