Welcome back! Good to hear from you. I live in the U.K. So I realise things might be different in the US, but here we have organisations that help people set up a business. Not just advice, but money. There must be stuff like that in your state. Is that something you could look into? Despite your problems, you obviously have a knack for the Internet, so that could be your answer. To work on something you run yourself from your laptop, which gets you a good income from stuff you enjoy. That gives you independence but lets you pay for what you need. And if you're lonely in your apartment, how about a service animal? A pet can be great company. Good luck on your journey!