Thank you Mickey Cheeky.....I decided I will wait till around 1pm to take a nap (if I'm even tired..I'm really not tired cause i'm Bipolar)...but I will take one of these new pills they want me to take....at 12..That way coast will be clear for me to know that no one will be here and I can have peace.

And I hate to say it but I will be smiling when I lay down for the simple fact he is going alone, he hates going alone...is always SORRY...yea, well I"m sorry too today. I will just say "I'm sorry" later...like he always does...ha