If you don't plan on divorcing him,what do you plan on doing in order to change your situation?I completely understand your need to vent,but does it change anything?Does it change him?

Do you care about yourself and your own happiness?Do you feel that you matter at all?Is this how you want to spend the rest of your life?Do you feel you deserve better or do you feel this is what you deserve?

You don't have to answer those questions,of course,but I am just curious.