I don't know that I have depression. I just know that I can be feeling fine and then my husband will snap at me over some trivial thing or make fun of my choice of something and I will immediately shut down. I will turn off the tv, not finish doing the dishes, etc and just go to bed. He can just make me feel so worthless and stupid sometimes. I didn't have a lot of hobbies before him. I was on a rec volleyball team, but have since moved and don't have many friends to join up with (besides, he'd probably get upset that I was out once a week for a few hours having fun without him!). Even when I tell him a week in advance that I have a work things after work and that I'll be a few hours late he'll say he's fine with that and to have fun. I remind him the night before about it and he says to have fun. Still thinking maybe he forgot about it (because I don't want him getting angry at me when I'm home a couple hours later than usual) I will email him at work the day of and remind him that I will be a couple hours late and his response is usually "Have fun Sweetie". I make sure to be home when I say I will because he had a blowout about me being later than I told him a few years ago which always has me on edge. I get home and he's usually all subdued because I was out having fun with coworkers when he was at home. He KNEW he couldn't come but still sulks about it. So that's why it's hard for me to do anything I really want to do because I know he will sulk or get mad at me.