Thanks Open Eyes for your response and warm greeting.

My brother is diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder, and who knows what else. He has never had consistent treatment and care, as well as almost like clock work having a breakdown with a subsequent binge. I'm grateful I stayed away from alcohol until I was 25, as both of my brothers are alcoholics.

I was a devout Christian before the episode of the last year, and had my whole meaning system utterly destroyed. Though for me, I'm at peace with that now, but I understand that is somewhat common with those who have Complex PTSD. The dichotomy of meaning and purpose with the stark reality of human suffering is truly difficult to bear when one acknowledges the depths of what humanity has had to suffer. Though I am not as familiar with PTSD or Complex PTSD as I am with depression and anxiety disorders (my previous diagnoses).

I read the link too, I found that very helpful! Thank you!