I'm irritable as ***k! My Dr's attempt to treat depression with Adderall
isn't working and it's only making me moody and irritable. It hasn't given me any boost "up" or feelings or euphoria or happiness. Now, I'm depressed and super irritable. I'm especially sensitive to noise. Even when someone talks to me, I can't wait for them to hurry up and finish what they're saying because the sound of their voice is shredding the ends of my every nerve. And that's a terrible thing to say. I feel so guilty for feeling like I want everyone to just shut up. Any noise is awful. I want to claw my way out of my own skin.

I have to go to my inlaws for Christmas. I'm dreading it. I don't know how I'm going to pull off an all day social marathon with other people.