I have this with T1. I don't see that T so much. I'm in group and I still have to decide what I want with this T.
The times I saw another client come from her room, I felt extreme anger towards that client. I wanted to know how other clients were in session. Did T like them better than me? I know I must be one of T's longest if not the longest, client. It hurts thinking about her with other clients. And thinking that maybe they get more than me... (like a hug).

I have 2 groupT's and groupT1 was first my individual T (when T1 went on leave). These 2 T's are very different than any other T I've seen. Maybe because they also are schema therapist.
GT1 gave me a card for passing my exam. And she's open and honest and kind. And then I started group therapy. And I would see her being like that with other members too. I'm glad only one or two other members had her as a T before group, otherwise I might be even more jealous.
But sometimes it makes me feel less special. Like it's all just a act. She's like that to all her clients, or at least the ones that want her / need her like that. I just feel the need to have someone (and preferable a T) to find me more special/betterwhatever than everyone else. So I want T to like me more than her other clients. I've talked both T's about this. I won't get the answer I want.

But how to deal with it? I don't know. I'm just stuck wondering and doubting.