To repeat for anybody relatively new here, my last therapist said that I was “narcissistically wounded and fragmented” and diagnosed me with DDNOS and PDNOS.

We came to an impasse and had a rupture without repair last summer. I’m still trying to understand some stuff, though – I’m in good physical health but don’t have much of a life due to anxiety and some residual negativity.

I’m trying to understand the “narcissistic wounding” because I feel like the fragmentation is pretty well healed – not entirely but seems within reach. But the “wounding” is a toughy since it feels like it’s been that way as long as I can remember. I have a sense of something more healthy but no specific, concrete memory where I’m feeling like that except for one when I was maybe 2. So – all very new to me, few social experiences and habits/skills.

One of the biggies for me is that when therapists in the past shamed or rejected me (and they did), it felt to me like they were part of “me” and consequently the “injury” was intolerable. Well, I could freeze out and continue going to therapy but that didn’t get anywhere.

So I’m wondering about attachment and the “attachment” figure being like part of oneself, until one grows and is (hopefully) whole and independent.

Anybody else had any experiences like that? Maybe lots of you have, but I’m too “wounded” still to hear/see it when I read it?