Took me about a year or a bit over to find something that really settled my moods.

Moods will shift unfortunately, bipolar cycles , it just does, that doesn't mean you can't find a good spot to just catch yourself a break and a deep breath.

I was willing to take some heavy meds. I hated some of the side effects but what else could I do ?

I know your having both BP and BPD will make it harder to find stability. If you can work in DBT classes it will help you determine which is the biggest problem for situation X and you can use whatever coping skills will help the most.

I'm sorry that your struggling. From what I have seen your tough and willing to keep fighting the fight.

((( hugs )))