I think maybe you need to try to hang in there and stay on what is prescribed a little longer. I know you've admitted to giving up on drugs and I completely understand. I also know that I'm very hard to treat and it took 14 years of trying things and waiting it out through various adjustments before giving up on anything to find something that works better. Unfortunately sometimes you have to put up with a lot of crap to find the right combo. I'm sorry to be blunt but I just don't think it's going to happen until you stick things out longer and don't make changes yourself.