What exactly is attachment issues? Is it a real thing or made up by therapists to describe a particular interaction? Or is it a feeling? What? Is it only with them? I'm cofused. Everyone says it is this...some sort of "complex little t trauma" but I've no real idea what that means or if they are seeing something I don't.

I'm trying hard to move on and I'm happy and yet although I want what I have, for some reason I will silently hurt myself nonetheless. I dont destroy relationships but me. Noone suffers but me! Is that an attachment issue? Or stupidity? Sometimes I think it is a real issue I don't need to be ashamed of but at others I wonder if I'm simply ridiculous!

And how do I overcome it? I just want to overcome it so I stop hurting myself. I don't care what anyone say anymore, I'm not choosing this. I'm happy. So why do I not only have to subconsciously destroy that but physically end up in pain too? I don't like being in pain. I see it, I'm aware of it and yet I still do it. Some would say it was a choice but truly it isn't.

I dont want to destroy good stuff in my life. They say that I should face the attachment issues but don't specify what that means. I've no memories, no.nothing. it's like working with an alien part of me. Everyone seems to see something I don't. That I shouldn't have this pain as that indicates attachment problems but what does that end mean?! How can I overcome what I don't understand?