I'm an alcoholic too....rx..and I am 52...and the dependence on alcohol for every alcoholic...gets worse over time and i have almost died about 5 times in the last 3 years.and been in the hospital at least 15...

I DID HAVE 8 years sober...read about PAWS....if you can get away from the alcohol for a period of time the feelings WE are feeling (I'm only sober a week) DO pass and I only know this because of the 8 years I had..ALSO, after I learned about PAWS I understood many of the reasons I felt the way I did...and kept me away from a drink longer.

Also, when I took my medication for that 8 years...I was not ever completely stable..but I felt a hell of a lot better than I do now..as far as jumping out of my skin...with anxiety, rage, frustration, irratibility, depression, high blood pressure, insomnia...PSTD rages....etc....its all related to the alcohol. I"m trying as well to stay away from it.

You are young and I fear that if reading about PAWS doesn't set in for you that you will probably continue to struggle...until you are ready.......I"m struggling and I am ready (I think).