I'd take any of my other illnesses times ten, over it. Literally being "trapped" in your mind when it wills you to, and being at your trauma's mercy...it's like it never lost its power. Like you didn't actually survive, at least not all of you. A piece of my soul is gone, another trapped in its grip.
RJ42, always feel free to PM me, if you'd like. Mine's not combat, but I have an understanding of what PTSD does to a person. Any time you need to talk, I'm a few clicks and keys away.