I am really trying. I suppose that my expectations were too high, so I decided to have none.

It's kind of sad. But then when I am shown a kindness, it's kinda like an unexpected surprise, so there's that...



Thank you Bill3, for the support. It means so much to come here and know that whatever it is I'm going through, there is understanding here. I feel as if we're all a bunch of strange little misshappen peas in the same, slightly imperfect, pod...