Im terrified of christmas. I dont want to have christmas dinner this year.. But grandparents comes here so i cant run away from it.. I used to feel better in summer but since winter came im getting worse and worse.. I always tried to think 'its just anxiety and panic' when i had tons of symptoms, but on the last session few days ago therapist said he thinks its not only disorders, he thinks i may have sth wrong with hormones etc.. So it makes me feel even more scared ahwrrr i dont want christmas