Well, I finally cried. I mean really cried, balled like a baby for an hour. Haven't cried like that for a lot of years. What did I know? 13 years of suppressed feelings finally got to me. I was alone, thank god. I would be ashamed to cry in front of people (still can't get passed that).

They'll hit you. In time, they will and it'll hurt like hell but at least you'll know you feel.