Anally - stiff and unyielding. As though there were a rod up your ****, or, here maybe extremely constipated.

Sarah, I think your therapist is frustrated. I think she thinks you're stuck and are doing nothing to help yourself get out of your depression and your situation. Whether she should have approached it like this is debateable, but maybe the underlying message is what you should listen to. You're frustrated with her, too, so maybe next session would be a good time for you two to level with each other.