I felt very depressed when I got up this morning. I think that now it's finally getting to me about being alone for Christmas. I have a technician coming today to switch me over. I hope that he/she will have a good attitude being Christmas Eve and having to work. I prefer to not to have that done but it has to or it's going to cost me a lot.

Yesterday I went to go grocery shopping but couldn't get into the store because it was too crowded. So I'll have to try again today and hope that it will not be like yesterday.

If only I had those things I have to do done already, then I could visit my friend and gift-exchange each other. But I don't think I'll have the time for that. So I'll have to do it tomorrow. He has his daughter to come and visit around 1PM tomorrow.

This morning I just had feelings of fear for the new year. Seems like some changes are going to happen. I would like things to stay the same and improve but it looks like that's not going to happen. Also I have fears that I'll have some health challenges this year.