We are alone this year...just us and the Chihuahua, sitting here in mentally ill silence, staring at dust bunnies doing nothing. Feeling mentally, emotionally, and spiritually numb.

The kid went cross country to his aunt for 2 weeks. He already opened his gifts and there is one left for me that I bought....underwear.

Growing up Christmas time always felt like a farce, weird, cold, anxious, we stayed distant through most of it.

I want to sleep the next 3 days away if not forever.