I want to buy us a present, but just don't know what to get. I just get a blah feeling and a blank.

It's like a waste of money.

Like we bought ourselves a bicycle with the helmet, lock, mirror, because an Other just got to have it. We rode it once. The fems want to wear something they like and the guys get nervy about it.....so we then don't.

We always have mixed feelings about everything. Before The Awakening....we/I always had the hardest time making my mind up, I still do but at least as to the why it's now clear.

Often times our feelings on a subject are opposite, so when we switch it looks like we changed our mind to a bystander. A time or 2 we changed our minds on things 5-6 times in succession which is noticed by other people and causes embarrassment to rise on our behalf.

I always chalked it up to mixed feelings because I feel a diverse range of emotions and feelings at once. Yes, no, maybe, Idk, NO!, hell yes,......over every decision, choice, instance, and thing. I always chalked it up to indecision...but it's an inner struggle to make a decision because of Others.

Often time we have to go with impulse decision calling outloud, the last one voiced wins before we are stressed out because people are watching. We don't make good decisions this lottery kind of way and it goes bad for us sometimes.

The only thing that we majorily can agree on is beer- and a Powerball ticket. My table is littered with Powerball tickets I yet to check. I'm sure it's not the big payday, but hopefully to get my money back!