I cant take this anymore. She hates me. Why? I have the knife to my wrist i think im going to have to break the promise i made to him. Ive never felt so alone and its Christmas but i feel miserable. Im a terrible person i shouldnt even have been born. If God wanted me to even be alive why was i abandoned by them? Why did i have to end up here with her who doesnt even care about my very existence? She turned everyone i love against me lying to them. Im sick of being strong when im not, really