Thanks guys, all I can do is hold on. My mother is sneaking wine in her bedroom right now thinking I won't know it. I wish she'd just drink in front of me rather than do that. I have to make it through this night at her house for dinner with my son and go home. I'm sober and trying to stay that way. I hate being here because every night at 5 is cocktails and she makes a huge deal of pretending not to drink in front of me. Then she slips behind me. I'm not going to drink. I'm not. Thanks for your support.