Well I think it has finally happened. I feel back to "normal". I've been socializing, going to social events and talking to people. I can see my bedroom floor again!! I don't remember the last time my room was so put together. I even put effort in keeping my house clean. I feel as if I enjoy life again. Plus with my employer finally paying my disability, that definitely helps. Although I'm not excited to go back to work, it is inevitable and must be done. Besides, I'm out of good tv to watch!
The commercialization of Christmas has not helped me to enjoy the holidays. After age 13 or so, I just lost interest. Presents were infrequent and I noticed the emphasis on buying gifts and being with someone during this time of year. The older I was, the less I cared. Then I watched the Festivus episode of Seinfeld, and loved the idea so Happy Belated Festivus to you all!!
Sadly, my best friend, my grandmother, passed on Christmas three years ago. I keep saying that is the reason to help me not enjoy the holidays. That was really true that first anniversary. We all couldn't take it. But as time has gone on, I try and focus just being around family and sharing memories. And it is kinda cool to see kids open gifts. I don't need to ruin Christmas for my nephews with a lecture about my distaste for this holiday. So tomorrow my mom, sister, brother in law, and two nephews will be at my house for dinner. Which is hilarious because I do not have any decorations up and both of their places do.