Yes. The sinking, drowning feeling. It feels like I am drowning and there is no hand to grab, to pull me up.

The absolute brokenness that I feel. Broken. Stupid. Dumb.

All the pieces come at me at once. I can't put them back together.

The anger, that there are no words to describe this to anyone who would understand.

The aloneness of really feeling that. Feeling the aloneness.

It hurts. It hurts too much.

The numbness. It mercifully comes. Comes to my rescue.

I'm standing there, the world is going on, and I'm in this place. Alone.

Undone.