Very lonely tonight. Having hard time trying to not completely fall apart.... Threw a fit earlier. Then took a nap..now I'm just awake staring at the walls. Lonely and missing my loved ones and what used to feel like home..or the closest I've ever known. Trying to finish up stuff for visits tomorrow but honestly I just don't care to.... I failed everyone I love and it's never gonna be ok. I gotta stop now because I know if I don't I'm gonna drift out and lose my $#¡t! And I need to stay grounded and present. Gotta protect the fort.

Hope everyone else is having a better night!

Merry Christmas PC! Thank you for always being here for us
~LITW (S)